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Nov. 2nd, 2004 08:26 pm
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friendsonly

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As I grew up, I was fascinated by the Holocaust. It was (and still is) so big to me that I simply could not understand it. How could 6 million Jews be killed? How could people have stood by and let it happen? Aren't the people who stood by and watched their neighbors be dragged out of their homes just as much to blame as the ones who actually forced them into the gas chambers or shot them?

I still have no answers and it's one of those things that really makes me question things about my faith.

Recently though, I've become more interested in the stories of those we still have no name for or no past. I'm no longer interested in Anne Frank and her father. I want to know more about her mother, her sister, the Van Pels, and Dr. Pfeffer. I really have no clue where to begin, but hopefully inspiration will come to me.

Did you all realize that there are (apparently) 3 million Jewish who haven't been identified? Entire villages, families. . . It's shocking.


Enough of this lol. Sorry to depress everyone.

But anyway, I've seen this game being played lately on ljs, so here it goes (oh dear God what am I getting myself into? lol).

Ask me any three questions, and I'll answer them as best as I can. :)
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Ooops. . . sorry for the delay in posting. Was at Sydney this weekend. Lots of hotties *Grins* Yah, I was glad I was single - so I could mingle! lol

Really, I had a good time, and definitely may do this again next year. Just may bring along a few more friends and know some more people there, but it's all good.

Song of the day (And weekend lol)

MAN! I FEEL LIKE A WOMAN!

Written by Twain/Lange

I'm going out tonight -- I'm feelin' alright
Gonna let it all hang out
Wanna make some noise -- really raise my voice
Yeah, I wanna scream and shout

No inhibitions -- make no conditions
Get a little out of line
I ain't gonna act politically correct
I only wanna have a good time

Bridge:
The best thing about being a woman
Is the prerogative to have a little fun and...

Chorus:
Oh, oh, oh, go totally crazy -- forget I'm a lady
Men's shirts -- short skirts
Oh, oh, oh, really go wild -- yeah, doin' it in style
Oh, Oh, Oh, get in the action -- feel the attraction
Color my hair -- do what I dare
Oh, oh, oh, I wanna be free -- yeah, to feel the way I feel
Man! I feel like a woman!

The girls need a break -- tonight we're gonna take
The chance to get out on the town
We don't need romance -- we only wanna dance
We're gonna let our hair hang down

(Bridge)
(Chorus)
(Bridge)
(Chorus)

I get totally crazy
Can you feel it
Come, come, come on baby
I feel like a woman
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Some people have words of the day, I've decided that I want to start putting in a song that reflects my mood that day.

So, the first song I've chosen for this lil event is this one:



You Gotta Be - Des'ree

Listen as your day unfolds,
challenge what your future holds
Try to keep your head up to the sky
Lovers they may cause you tears
Go ahead release your fears
Stand up and be counted,
don't be shamed to cry
You gotta be..

You gotta be bad, you gotta be bold,
you gotta be wiser
You gotta hard, you gotta be tough,
you gotta be stronger
You gotta be cool, you gotta be calm,
you gotta stay together.
All I know, all I know
Love will save the day

Herald what your mother said
Read the books your father read
Try to solve the puzzle
in your own sweet time
Some may have more cash than you
Others take a different view
My oh my, you gotta be..

Time asks no questions, it goes on without you
Leaving you behind if you can't stand the pace
The world keeps on spinning, can't stop it if you tried to
The best part is danger staring you in the face

Got to be bad. Got to be bold
Got to be wise. Don't ever be cold
Got to be hard. Not too, too hard
All I know is, love will save the day

Updating

Apr. 13th, 2004 07:49 pm
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Well, now life seems a heck of a lot calmer - but I know it's only a matter of time before exams. Oh well :). Anyway, smoke-free room selection was today and well, the singles were long gone before I got called, so am going to wait until tomorrow. Hopefully I can end up in Randolph or Manson, but with my luck it'll be Dew. Whatever.

I walk out of this darkness
With no sense of regret
And I go with a clear conscience
We both know that you can't say that
-sung by Kelly Clarkson.

*Yawn*

Apr. 13th, 2004 01:16 pm
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Late nights complicated by bout of insomnia followed by rainy day does not make for an alert Kel.

Really need a nap, but can't until after class - may not even get to then because roomie may have a guest. Eh, naps ruin my bedtime anyway, may just ride it out with lots of soda.

We'll see.

My Parody

Apr. 12th, 2004 12:42 am
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Don’t be so quick to trust that fake
Timberflake
He’s a slimy weasel
Yes he is
Timberflake
He’s used so many women horribly
Timberflake
Does the name Britney
Ring any bell
Timberflake

He’s slime but I don’t mind
Exposing the jerk
How can you ignore him
He’s such a stage hog
He backstabbed his guys
And everybody’s wise
Soon he’ll be paying his dues

So he grabs his balls
And he grabs a couple boobs
And he’s allowed to do
Whatever he wants to
I said he’s an ass and it’s not right
That Janet’s left to pick up his mess

Don’t be so quick to trust that fake
Timberflake
He’s a slimy weasel
Yes he is
Timberflake
He’s used so many women horribly
Timberflake
Does the name Britney
Ring any bell
Timberflake

Opps he didn’t mean it
Spilling Britney’s private life
A big mistake, but it’s ok
Double, standards everywhere
Just watch him flirt
Is it his fault girls want him
And that he can’t control himself

So he grabs his balls
And he grabs a couple boobs
And he’s allowed to do
Whatever he wants to
I said he’s an ass and it’s not right
That Janet’s left to pick up his mess

Don’t be so quick to trust that fake
Timberflake
He’s a slimy weasel
Yes he is
Timberflake
He’s used so many women horribly
Timberflake
Does the name Britney
Ring any bell
Timberflake

Just watch him now
No disrespect, he don’t mean no harm
Just watch him now
He doesn’t mean to break no heart
Just watch him now
Can he just zip up his pants


(Can anyone tell how much Justin annoys me? *Grins evily*
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*tapping fingers together in a "plotting world dominance" type way* eh eh eh eh eh


I'm feeling evil. Anyone care to take over the world with me? First come gets Anatartica

Eh2

Apr. 8th, 2004 10:19 pm
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Typical of the kind of month I'm having:

Not only did my senior do nothing for my revealing, she didn't even show up.

I'm seriously thinking about transfering my birthday to February. At least that month didn't suck royal butt.

Awful Day

Apr. 7th, 2004 04:43 pm
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Well, first off: I'm FINE. Sore but ok.

Laurel (my favorite horse at the barn) threw me. I'm sore and bruised, but other wise, I'm all right.

Doesn't help that I had already burnt my finger from the damned soup splashing on it when I was serving it.

And, to top it off.

Wes.

You are so busted.

I know how you were able to write those damned poems. '

THEY'D ALREADY BEEN WRITTEN.

So, I've found a song. I think it fits.

Since you’ve been gone I feel so much better
Cause I saw how mean you could be
I used to want some explanation
Now all I want it my Patsy Cline CD


How I’ve waited for the day
When I could finally say


You Jerk
You Jerk
You are such a Jerk
There are other words
But they just don’t work

"Jerk" by Kim Stockwood.

Yah, I think that says about it all.

Poetry

Apr. 6th, 2004 11:47 pm
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I have had to write some poems for Creative Writing class. Am posting them here. If you want, reply and tell me what you think about them!

Cold Whiteness

Winds howling, beating against the window
Snow blankets the world
Cold whiteness
Freezing people out.
Trees barren, naked against the landscape
Dreams long dead and buried
It’s too cold to go outside
The people huddle inside around fires
Which offer no respite
No foot stirs
Where is the little deer
That played outside only yesterday?
Where is the bluejay
Who sang so gaily?
Where are the children
And their bright laughter
There is no sun, no rainbows
Only grey skies grace the heavens
Snow continues to fall
Only more coldness to come
Yet, somewhere in the dead forest
A rose blooms.



Ode to Sleep and Dreams

Cuddled up deeply in the blankets
Burying my head in the pillow
Five more minutes to dream
I am warm and cozy in my bed
Too soon I know I will be up and out
In the cold harsh world



Dreams Disappear

Arms encase me lovingly
I hear a soft voice tell me
“You are loved and you are home”
I feel the certainty of this
As sure as I am alive

Then my alarm awakes me
There are no arms
No soft voice
No certainly of that love
For which I long.

I cry to sleep once more.

Yet I live my life
Go to class, go to work
I am surrounded and yet alone
So I wait for the night
At least in my dreams
I am loved like that.



Lady Jane

Lady Jane, barely a woman,
Did you know what awaited you?

Did you, could you, know
Know that your parents would abuse you?
That you would be forced into
A loveless marriage?
That your cousin would put
You to death?

If God is merciful,
You never knew.
You lived your life
Happy and carefree

A happiness that would too soon
Be ripped from you
As you entered that cold room
Surrounded by people
Who neither loved you nor cared for you.

Lady Jane,
I hope you are happier where you are
I hope you found the peace you needed

Your quiet and gentle strength
Is a model to us all.



Reading

Please mom, just five more minutes
One more chapter
Who could help losing one’s self
In Shakespeare, Bronte, Austen, Montgomery
It is a world where everything is
Possible – realistic

I can fly away to Verona
Get Friar Laurence’s letters to Romeo
Save him and his Juliet
Happily ever after is possible
Or I could travel to – Shire
And slap Rochester’s face
For lying to Jane for so long
Offer her food and comfort,
Shelter during the rainy night
Or I could go and stop Lydia
Make her see what a mistake
Running away with Wickham would be
Or go to Avonlea
And stroll down Lover’s Lane
Or race through the Haunted Wood
With Anne and Diana
It does not matter who I meet
Or where I end up

I read and I am free
I dream and I am



Class Goes On

Class goes on, endlessly on and on.
The clock ticks silently on towards infinity.
The teacher drones on, filling students with
The learning he has learned to teach forever.

She tries to pay close attention to him.
She knows that the material will be
On a test, needed for an essay, or both
But her dreams call her from deep within.

She is Jane Eyre, standing with Rochester
Or Anne, finally acknowledging her heart.
She is Queen Elizabeth I, ruling over England.
She is tall, thin, blonde, beautiful, desirable.

Suddenly the teacher calls out to her.
Her beautiful dream world is destroyed.
She must come back to the real world,
And answer the teacher as best she can.

Class goes on, endlessly on and on.
The clock ticks silently on towards infinity.
The teacher drones on, filling students with
The learning he has learned to teach forever.



Oh, and Emily Dickinson has found her way back to me lol. More models for inspiration - I'm liking writing poetry.
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Serena: Know what Raye?
Raye: Huh?
Serena: You were really something tonight.
Raye: Thank you!

Kigurimiko-Lemure: I'm missing something ..... *looks down at self* something very important!

Ami: Well, Mamoru has always been popular... even with boys...

Usagi: Can you see anything?
Luna: No. They've got the curtains closed!

Usagi: Say, yours is a little bigger, isn't it?

Chibiusa: Usagi's with Mamo-chan!
Rei: And they're going to do such a thing in a place like that.

Amy: We're the only ones on the ship without dates!
Raye: That doesn't mean we still can't have fun!

Tuxedo Kamen: That was great Sailor Moon. I'll remember what happened tonight.

Usagi: Wait.. did you take a peep at him?
Rei: *blushes*

Mamoru: I'm taking a bath, care to join me?

Michiru: There are some things only Adults can enjoy...don't you think Haruka?
Haruka: *Blushes and Coughs*

Haruka: I'm glad I met you...
Michiru: What?
Haruka: Lets keep on driving like this forever...I won't let you go tonight.
Michiru: Oh! My...



I'm highly amused.
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I've spent the past thirty six hours in contemplation.

Yes, this whole situation hurt, and Wes, I know you weren't 100% honest with me.

But you know what?

I'm still me. I refuse to let myself sink into any type of depression.

You're just a guy.

And you know what?

Half the population is male. You're not special.

It's Over.

Apr. 4th, 2004 10:20 pm
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So, on top of everything (my not feeling well, my having ten million things to do), Wes decides to dump me.

Fine.

I'm now on the market again. What else is new?

Survey

Apr. 3rd, 2004 12:33 pm
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More surveyness!
-GENERAL INFO-
-My name is: Kelly
-nicknames: Kitten (my mom calls me this when she's being extra sweet)
-sex: Female
-birthday: 4/21/83
-color: blue
-star sign: Taraus
-place of birth: Winston Salem, NC
-current residence: Sweet Briar, VA
-hair color: brown
-eye color: brown
-height: 5'
-writing hand: Right
-BODY ILLS + SKILLS-
-do you bite your nails: no
-can you roll your tongue: no
-can you blow smoke rings: never tried
-can you blow spit bubbles: no
-can you cross your eyes: no
-tattoos and where: none
-do you make your bed daily: I try to. . . .does that count?
-what’s sexiest on a guy: uniforms!! Military ones!
-what’s sexiest on a girl: um, being a girl and straight, I don't really pay attention to this.
-do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it: both
-what utensils do you use eating pizza: my hands
-do you cook: nothing complicated
-GROOMING-
-how often do you brush your teeth: once a day
-do you shower/bathe: ummm......duh!!!
-how long do these showers last: normally not long - unfortunately there are only two showers for thirty girls here - must be in and out in a decent amount of time
-hair drying method: I usually blow dry my hair until it's almost dry, then let it hair dry
-do you swear: yah, but not as bad as some people do
-do you pee in the shower: definitely not.
-what color is your bedroom: purplish blue
-do you use an alarm clock: yes but I often don't hear it
-name four things or people you're obsessed with: Harry Potter (H/H all the way), the BSB, school, family/friends/bf
-what’s your sleeping position: normally side, but I toss and turn a lot in my sleep
-what kind of bed do you like: in the middle - not too hard, but not too soft
-in hot weather do you use a blanket: yes
-do you sleepwalk: yes
-do you talk in your sleep: yes, and apparently I moan too *Shrugs
-how about the light on: sometimes
-do you fall asleep with the TV or radio: occasionally
-WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU-
-had sex: never
-watched bambi: several years ago
-cried: can't remember
-talked on the phone: today
-read a book: today
-MUSIC-
-is music important to you: very.
-do you sing: yes
-what instruments do you play: piano, voice
-what do you think of Eminem: Definitely wouldnt want to meet him on the street, but his songs have a nice beat
-in your opinion what band is the best of all time: . . . . pleading the fifth.
-DO YOU LIKE-
-pop music: yes
-rock music: depends
-punk music: some
-rap music: no
-country: yes
-jazz: yes
-classical: some
-new age: no
-hardcore: no
-indie rock: no
-emo: no
-Game: some
- DO YOU/ARE YOU-
-Could you live without the computer?: yes. . . oh fudge, no I couldn't.
-What’s your favorite fruit?: cherries ;)
-What hurts the most: my imperfection
-Trust others way too easily? probably
- NUMBER-
Of times you have had your heart broken? once. . . but it really wasn't serious looking back.
Of hearts you have broken? honestly? I don't know.
Of girls kissed? none.
Of boys kissed? 3
Of drugs taken illegally? none
Of tight friends? 3
Of CD's owned? about 200
Of scars on my body? too many.
-OTHER THINGS-
-I know: I am faulty
-I want: to be perfect
-I have: too many insecurites
-I wish: that I could leave all my worries and wants to God
-I hate: liars
-I miss: my Roxy
-I fear: needles
-I hear: the tv
-I love: my family, my close friends, my puppies, everyone I'm close too
-I care: too much
-I always: tend to talk too much
-I cry: when I am rejected by someone I care about
-I write: when I have something on my mind or if something interesting has happened
-I can usually be found: online
-Have you ever played a game that required removal of clothing: no.
-ARE YOU A...-
-Wuss: sometimes
-Druggie: no
-Gang member: no
-Daydreamer: umm. . . *points to title of lj
-Alcoholic: no
-Freak: maybe
-Brat: can be
-Sarcastic: can be - but don't normally succeed
-Goody-goody: in all arenas
-Angel: I try to be
-Devil: no
-Friend: yes
-Shy: depends on the situation
-Adventurous: sometimes
-Intelligent: I'm smart, but I'm no Einsten
-SELF ANALYSIS YOU PROBABLY DON'T WANT TO DO-
-Your best feature [personality]: I care
-Most annoying thing you do: tend to be a lil overwhelming
-Biggest mistake you've made this far: being too tense
-Describe your personality in one word: passionate
-A smell that makes you smile: flowers
-A city you'd like to visit: Vienna
-A drink you order most often: Dr. Pepper
-The music you prefer while alone: pop
-A TV show you watch regularly: anything on TLC
Have you ever...
been drunk?: no
smoked pot?: no
kissed a member of the opposite sex?: of course
kissed a member of the same sex?: no
crashed a friend's car?: no
been to japan?: no
ridden in a taxi?: yes
been in love?: yes
had sex?: no
had anal sex?: no
had sex in public?: no
been dumped?: no
shoplifted?: no
cut?: class? yes anything else? no
been fired?: no
been in a fist fight?: no
had a threesome?: no
snuck out of your parent's house?: no
been tied up (sexually)?: no
been caught masturbating?: no
had sex with a member of the same sex?: no
been arrested?: no
made out with a stranger?: sorta yes. . .
stole something from your job?: no
celebrated New Year's in Times Square?: no
gone on a blind date?: no
lied to a friend?: well I've tried - but if u're my friend u know me well enough to know that I CAN"T LIE
had a crush on a teacher?: well, I've appreciated the fact that my Junior English High School teacher was - and is - good looking but beyond that no.
celebrated Mardi-Gras in New Orleans?: no
been to Europe?: yes
skipped school?: a class yes, entire day? no.
slept with a co-worker?: no
had sex at the office (of the other person)?: no
had sex at your own office?: no
gotten married?: no
gotten divorced?: no
had children?: no
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OK, so I thought that this would happen, but I need to let this out.

After spending two days panicing over my roomie and her health, I find out that there was nothing to have been worrying over in the FIRST place. I'm sorry I got so worked up, but I had no way of knowing. Needless to say, none of my work got done those two days. I'm just glad that roomie is as ok as she can be at this point.

Then my friend decides that since it's April Fool's Day, she'd play a trick. She came to me in tears telling me that she was being forced into an arranged marriage. I'm such a little fool that I immediately worry and believe her. *Rolls eyes at myself* I'm not mad at her, because believe me I should've been on the alert for something like this. I'm irritated at myself.

Then I hop online this morning to check my email and find out that my professor has lost my damned paper. Now, I'm an idiot, because I assumed by last night that if I hadn't heard, she had it. So, in an attempt to clean out my hard drive, I deleted the essay. Smart move on my part, I know. I know. So, now, I've got until midnight tonight to get it rewritten and turned in. Needless to say, I will have more than just a single copy of my essay this time. I want this to get in.

I get to class and realize I forgot another paper that was back in my room, so I had to run back and grab it.

I really need to stop being so scatterbrained, but I honestly thought I had everything settled. I just want to be home at this point. I think a cuddle with my Roxy Bear would heal a heck of a lot of my stress.

Thing is, it's no one's fault but mine that I'm feeling a little overwhelmed at this point. It's not like my friends MAKE me take on their emotional stress. I want them to feel like they can come to me if they need to talk. They can. I don't always know what to say or how to respond, but my ear is always perched. I do it on my own.

I'm too emotionally involved with everyone. One of these days, I'm going to break, I know it. But it's me. How do I change who I am? Dropping everything for everyone if it's humanly possible is who I am. So, right now I'm trying to concentrate on school. If I can make it through the next few weeks, I'll be ok. Like my last post said, I think it's the time of year that's causing me to crack. As soon as the school ends for the year, I'll feel more capable of being the friend I try to be.
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Well, it's been an interesting bit since I've last updated.

Am greatly concerned for roomie at this point, and am equally willing to get it on "like donkey kong" as she says if her ex continues to be a coward. I've been declared her minister of war. That actually fits with my Irish blood. Believe me it was pumping after sending Tim THREE stats throughout the 2 1/2 hours that we were there to try to talk with him. I've promised myself, though, that I won't do a damned thing unless she tells me I can. Frankily, that's the only reason I didn't bust through the barraks to try to find him so that roomie could tell him her side of things. My bet is he was there and just was telling them to tell us he wasn't. Conveniantly enough, he didn't answer his cell either.

And I thought he was a good guy. He's looking more and more like a rat to me. And a yellow one at that.

Meanwhile, apparently my Roxy Bear is a jumping bean. Makes me homesick to know that I'm missing getting to see her do all those cute and fun things. Ah well, I only have like five weeks left before I get to see her again. That makes me happy - she's such a doll.

Here's looking down the barral of the end of the semster gun.

At this point in time, students go nuts. If I post within the next little bit, I'm probably going to be ranting or whining at the amount of work thst I have to get done before I can be free from school. Tensions will be high around here. Just hope I can keep my mouth shut and stay out of the fray as much as possibly.

Although, if Shakespeare Twelve Plays is filled for next semster by the time that I can register, I can make no promises.
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